I'm tired..

//The title is so wrong, I don't really name my poems, so I make a name up when I submit them..\\

I'm tired of wearing this fake smile,
You've all been foooled a real long while,
The truth is I'm dying inside,
If only you knew what's exactly on my mind.

Everyday when i wake,
There's this pain I cannot shake,
It's the same everyday,
I don't think I can cope with all this pain.

There is one thing i do to release,
It gives my mind a few seconds of peace,
If only it would last a little longer,
But living with the guilt,
Makes my life even harder.

There is the times I wish to die,
And i might resort to suicide,
But for now I'll live my lie,
And each day a little more I shall die.