If Only...

The darkness shadows her pale frame
As she constantly re-lives her pain
Where did all her dreams go?
Why did they disappear?
Because now she is lonely
If only she could feel love, if only

Her friends always told her they'd always be there
If only they knew so they would care
But they never considered
Even for a minute
that she'd shed those tears
The blood of her fears.

She sheds the pain in crimson strips
all upon her red pale wrists
She starves herself
to fight the tears
All the pain on herself she leaves
Reflects what she receives

They mock her and always laugh
they don't know her feelings, not even half
the teasing displays
All of the names
She never did anything at all
So why do they make her fall?

She cries herself to sleep each night
Thinking of the pain she must fight
She wishes through all
in her own blooded puddle
The crimson her skin weeps
the suicide she keeps

This is the story, her book
her journal of thoughts you did look
but that girl is me
For all i did see
You read it through
Because my wishes came true...