The Unknown Me

My friends ask are you okay?
I say yes anyway
I try to not tell them who I really am
I'm scared what I could do to them if I speak the truth

I'll cry and say I'm fine theres just dust in my eye
I'll bleed and say I'm not hurt its just a paper cut
Theres just to much to not say because this is me in a way

And when I do cry
When I can't hold back the tears
I just let it all out, but then I run to my place where no one goes
They probably think why does she always cry
Why does she think of dying?

Then theres the other kids who talk about how their lives are so great
Me all I do is hate
I just want them to shut up
And stab them

I'm sorry but it isn't fair
I cry all the time
And all the time they stare
I know its not very normal to always feel like this
But that's the way I really am inside

So I go to the fields of grey
I can finally breathe and shout out what I really feel
The truth
I sit there talking to myself

One day I'll say I'm sorry for all the lies
That I told
For not being bold

I'll tell them everything
Why there are marks on my skin
My pain within
Because its too hard to know the real me
Its scary

So you'll know eventually
But for now just let me be
Let me cry
Let me think of suicide
Let me die in my dreams
Let me be...who I really am
I'll be in the lonely
Waiting...for you