One Deep Suicidal Teen

Yet again, you left me wondering why.
Why in the heavens do I want to die.
Your love was all I ever fully had.
Not a family, not even a dad.
I was left to wonder this world alone.
Until the love you gave me shone.
So for so long I needed you,
more than I needed the sky to be blue.
More than I needed the sun to rise,
more than I needed any other guys.
But slowly you backed away,
leaving me alone in the world to stay.
I knew once you found out you'd run,
once you found out I Shakingly hold that gun.
It has been my true friend,
there with me from beginning to end.
I had no one as you see,
All I wanted was to be me.
But I won't have that chance once more,
I made a death, a murder, with gore.
I loved you so much,
All I ever needed was your touch.
But as you walked out that door,
You knew this heart you tore.
One deep suicidal teen,
left the world without being seen.