Helpless.

I can’t help that I’m different,
Can’t help control my anger,
Need help to tell right from wrong,
Don’t understand why.

I can’t help that I scare you,
Can’t help that I’m afraid,
Need help with different issues,
Don’t tell me I’m weird.

I can’t see you understanding,
Or trying to listen to my point of view,
I’m not gonna lose my temper,
Just going to breath.

Its getting worse,
And harder to cope,
Seeing with this tunnel vision,
I’m loosing scope.

You see my parents are at war,
Christmas makes them fight more,
Little brother crying,
He wishes he was dying.

And I stand here watching,
Trying to do good,
Teachers on my back,
Sanity I lack.

This is why I’m hiding,
Behind a book,
Leafing through the pages,
Trying to hide my look.

I get nasty when I’m sad,
I lash out when I get mad,
Don’t bother to control myself,
I expect a friend to understand.

Life is getting on top of me,
Strangling me,
Killing me,
Taking my will to live.

I’m helpless,
I need you to understand,
But you can’t,
You’re not me, you’re not helpless.

You have true friends,
Holding your hand,
helping you when life gets tough,
Following when you walk off in a huff.

I’m alone, and yes I’ve told you,
But what do you expect?
Me to smile when I am sad?
Me to go slowly mad.

No never shall I do what you want,
Never shall I help you,
When all my life you people never helped me,
Feeling down, turn around look at me.

See me for who I am,
Not some pathetic freak,
I have feelings,
No longer shall I suffer in silence.

I’m helplessly losing,
I’m hopelessly falling,
Struggling with life,
Can’t keep away the strife.

Crying to some unseen god,
Oh yeah, your life is hard,
Looking for help,
Because I’m helpless.