How Many Times

How many times have I lied?..
about what’s really going on, I'll just run and hide

how many times have I cried?...
jus broke down and had no one to confide

how many times have I wanted to slit?...
away my life, draining all of the blood outta my wrist

how many times have I been abused?...
by fu.cked up bastards I felt so used

how many times have I wished?...
that there was a decent guy...that me, he cherished

how many times has my heart?...
been used, abused and torn apart

how many times have I said?...
i jus wanna die, I wish I bled

how many more days will I live?...
on this earth, I jus don’t give......