The death of a cousin

I was young
i didn't know it was wrong
i didn't know he was
sexually abusing me all along
he was a cousin
some one i trusted
i am so glad now
that he got busted
i remember it well
its crystal clear
i member the fear i had when he was near
i turned to the blade
my only true friend
the blade that will
help my life end
when the blood
poured out of my wrists
i didn't think it could
get worse than this
but no i found out
he didn't just do it to me
he did it to
my whole family
my cousin told
trying to save my life
but the fact that he did it to her
i turned back to the knife
but no the death
isn't for me
the death that i will cause
its for my cousin tony