What am i to do

What am I to do?
What am I to think?
My mind keeps contemplating love,
Over and over again!
My heart keeps screaming out its nothing but pain,
So just forget about it.
My mind keeps dreaming of love all trough the day,
My heart keeps running from it,
Pinching my mind to wake up from it.
My mind wants something even more,
Some one special to love me,
And overcome my hearts pain.
My mind pictures all this joy,
My heart see nothing but darkness right trough it.
So what am I to do?
What am I to say?
When my mind and heart don’t want the same.