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My life is going down the drain
all i feel like doing is causing pain
to myself, no one else
just hurting me, only me
i feel like there is nothing in this world
that can cure this sad little girl
turn my frown into a smile,
just make me happy, for just a while
even he knows not of my pain,
he knows not that im insane...
i do not wish to tell him, not now....
while my world is being turned upside down.
my burden he should not carry
not until i know he's the one i'll marry
what to do in my time of need?
cut and wait for me to bleed?...
i only wish there is someone out there
who can be my shoulder to cry on, just really care
do u even exist? should i even stay?
or should i just leave this world today?...