Just again.

by goot   Oct 24, 2004


I am afraid
To cut myself open
Find the weak points in my veins
Where they so gruesomly were cut before

I am afraid
To go out to the pain
To grasp of what i love
For punishment frightens me

I fear not the blood
The dying or the death
I fear only one thing
Survival

For if i am to live
I have to face your pain
I have to see those tears
And punishment shall rule

The most fearful of survival
Is my mothers anger hate
She worries so blindly
And still she hates

So i will not attepmt
Will not make mistakes
Will not harm myself
Unless i eliminate failure

I want to die... I want to spill my blood
And so i will...

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  • 19 years ago

    by Eibutsina

    This is was unique Goot, very original idea and well put down as always - I enjoyed this piece as depressing, sad and dark as I found it there was inspiration in their for the "cutters" reading this and good on you girl - your way to talented a poet to let go just yet your words have potential to reach and help so many ppl dont cut yourself OR them short

    Luv your friend Eirisa

  • 20 years ago

    by FireCracker

    Awesome poem ! ! It was gr8 ! ! Thanks so much for ur comment on my poem it meant a lot .. ! =D
    ,.,., THNKS AGAIN ,.,.,.
    Check out more of my poems if u get a chance ! !

  • 20 years ago

    by FireCracker

    sad poem, but i loved it ! Awesome work .. .. ! lol ! keep up the gr8 writing .. ! lol
    =D
    check out my poems if u get a chance itd mean a lot ! lol THNKS

  • 20 years ago

    by Flea

    i am glad to see u wont hurt yaself
    but saddend to see u want to die
    i hope u dont hurt urself
    we all love ya lots
    keep scribblin
    catch ya