For the first time in what seems like forever
I cried real tears of pain.
They welled in my eyes and uncontrollably
Ran like rivers down my face.
I don't know exactly what I was crying about
Or who I was crying for.
But still they rained down
Like an unstoppable force.
I guess I was crying for my broken heart
And the fight I'm having with my friends.
For the decline of my grades
And this period of loneliness that just won't seem to end.
I cry for the pain I feel each day
And for the medicine I take that makes me sick
Instead of taking the pain away.
I never used to be like this.
For awhile I was happy and carefree.
I was an innocent girl
With lots of hopes, plans, and dreams.
But now that world has disappeared
And gone beyond my reach.
I've been put in a world that is sad and lonely.
A place I never wanted to be.
Why can't I be like everyone else
And find joy in the littlest things?
What is it that I'm missing from my life
That makes me so incomplete?
I know there are others out there
With problems much bigger than my own.
But still I just can't take this pain
Of living my life all alone.
