Shouldve Known

I told you that it would be hard
That we wouldn't be able to do all that we wanted
And I asked you if you still wanted me

You told me that you knew all this
That you was willing to make it work
And that you always wanted to be with me

It was fine at first
We talked every night
Then you started to act weird

You started ignoring me
You weren't there for me when I needed you the most
But when I talked to you, you always had a reason why

You were the one that said that it would be okay
That our love would prevail
We had nothing to worrie about

After you started ignoring me
I started cutting again, just a little at first
Just trying to release the pain that you caused

Now I cant stop
I cant seem to put the knife down
Its the only way that I soar for a while

Ive tried to stop but nothing really works
You are the only one that can make me stop
I need you in my life

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I know this isn't a really good poem. that the flow wasn't really there.
but its how i fell right now and i don't expect everyone to like it or
understand it. My boyfriend and I live in different towns and its really
hard on both of us because we cant be together. and sometimes
I fell like this but he doesn't know that. any way take care and thanks for
reading and check out some of my others if you have time.
~Adrian