My only solace

Life is the ultimate contradiction
Born to die
The only mystery left in life is how
The only real choice you have is when
The only thing i can control is my death

I want for nothing other than my end
I've grown weary fast for one so young
Seen so much for one so lost
Suffered too much for me to live

Death is by far the greatest gift i will recieve
One i can only give myself
People closest to me take comfort
Take comfort in the knowledge that this is all i wnat from this life.

Selfish i am to want what many fear
Though certain it will be better than what i face
My only solace in this life is knowing how ill go
By my own hand.
This one thing i WILL control.