Why Can't I?

How many times will I have to lie,
To cover up for what I've tried?

How many time will I,
Have to sit an deny?
"They're all lies!"
I'll scream,
But I know what I really mean.

Why I can't I just admit to it?
No. no, no!
They'd throw a fit!

In my heart I know I should,
And in my heart,
I wish I could!

But no matter how hard I try,
All I can do is lie and lie.

I have betrayed them,
Yes I know,
And I should have,
Never done so.

I was just having a little fun,
And made some mistakes,
But all I do is shake,
And cry,
Because I am tired,
Of covering up with lies.

How hard is it to do right,
And find the light?
Darkness is powerful,
But I'm not going to let it,
Overtake my world.

I'm just a girl,
Trying to get by,
But all I can do is lie.

Please God,
Help my take control of my life,
And rid myself,
Of all the strife.

[I'm not sure WHY I wrote this Poem, but I did, and I hope People enjoy it. Not sure if it's all that good, but Vote and leave Comments please. E-mails often Open. I appreciate.]