The Pain of My Life

My big fake smiles, my stupid lies,
I don't understand, my heart never tries,
I feel like I'm different, so out of place,
I make a mistake, I get slapped in the face.

Why do I feel this way? Left out and cold,
Do my parents care? Is that why they scold?
My life, one big nightmare,
It's just so hard, It's too much to bear.

Physical violence, Is that love?
When I try to speak, but in return get a shove,
My heart is scarred, It will never heal,
I'm guessing, the only thing I can do is deal.

No matter what I do, I can't hide from the pain,
It's everywhere, running through ever vein,
I don't know why, but I can't breathe anymore,
I just look up, and I get beat to the floor.

I run as fast as I can, theres nowhere to hide,
I can't run anymore, theres a pain in my side,
I'm so scared, I hope no one hears me scream,
Hoping this will stop, hoping it's just a dream.

It's real, it hurts so bad,
Nobody cares, even if I'm sad,
Why do they do it? Why kick me when I'm down?
I can't stand this, I'd rather drown!

I'm fading away, from who I used to be,
Nobody cares, well at least not for me...