How my life was ruined

You make me feel
as if I'm worth
nothing at all
ever since you
let me fall
i don't know
how to cope
with the pain
anymore
because i got so
used to loving you
i hated when
you said you
would never leave me
with a ghost of you
you never hurt me
on purpose until
you started acting shady
i knew something
must have gone wrong
but i wasn't sure
what it was
so instead of
waiting to find out
i figured it would
be best if i was gone
so i took some pills
and drank some beer
i started getting woozy
and i blacked out
i felt relieved
but it didn't happen
how i wanted it to
i opened my eyes
to find myself
paralyzed because
i struck a nerve
with a knife
i didn't realize
i had cut myself
but i did and
now my life was ruined
i still can't believe
i did that to myself
i recked my whole life
and now i must really go
so i grab the gun
put it to my head
and pulled the trigger..

--not true but comment and vote please--