Given up

Never
on my own
blood drips
out of mind
out of time
3
2
1
this is mine
my pain
my sorrow
a cut today
a cut tomorrow
to many scars
to count on my arms
to many thoughts of wishing i was dead
to many times Ive put the gun to my head
been that close
but never gone that far
its like drips
but i don't cut my wrists
cause I'm scared to take my own life
or am i brave to stay alive and live
either way
I'm dead someday
but for now
ill chin up
and live this life
and show
i haven't given up