Untitled *about cutting*

I push the razor into my skin.
it sinks into me with very little pain.
knowing its wrong, i do it anyway.
i have to lie to you.
i love you so much!!
i don't think i could ever tell you if I've done it again.
if your serious... I'm scared.

i know it doesn't make sense so let me sum it up. I'm obsessed with cutting and my boyfriend HATES me when i cut. he said he would hang himself next time i cut because he says it hurts him too much to know i do those things to myself.