Why?

I walk silently toward the bathroom
Tears in my eyes,
I know what I'm going to do,
Its no surprise
I shut the door behind me,
And let out a sigh,
Sit myself down
First I'm going to try
I'll try not to do it,
I know it's no good
But i honestly cant help it,
I feel like i should
I grab hold of the razor
Place it next to my arm,
My hands are shaking
I'm trying to stay calm
I begin to cut
Scratching at me,
Blinking away the tears
That are stopping me see
I'm now cutting deeper,
Thinking of how it used to be
It was all so easy
What are you doing to me?
But wait whats that?
A puddle has formed on the floor,
I stand myself up
And grab for the door
I notice my arm,
And i nearly die
Its covered in blood
I start to cry
What do i do?
I need some help
But no ones here,
Just myself
I asked for this,
I wanted to be free
But now its happening,
I can finally see
I can see you're not worth it
I can see you don't care
But thats too bad,
Because life is unfair
I collapse on the floor
Your face passes me by
Just before i die
I scream Why, Barney Why?