If I was to die tonight
I don't think anyone would care,
If I was to die tonight
not a soul would be there,
If I was to die tonight
I would be free at last,
If I was to die tonight
I would be free of my past.
I will die tonight
I will erase my past,
I will be alone,
I will be free at last
I reach for the blade
I can't fight it anymore,
My pain, my anguish, my meaningless life,
I can't stand this emotion being so raw
I cut once again,
This is no different from any other day,
Difference is i've cut so deep,
All I can do is watch the blood pour away.
I see the blood pool on the floor,
I feel my head losing consciousness,
I realise too late I can't die anymore,
It means my mother finds out like this.
I think my last thoughts
And close my eyes,
There's no replacement of the joy you feel
When you think your going to die,
I wake up in a room,
My arms are numb,
A nurse walks in,
then my mum.
My heart starts racing
I have to be sick,
My mind is pacing
I thought it would be quick.
I get told I nearly died,
But that’s what I wanted,
They saved my life,
But now I'm back here haunted,
I cried that night but not because I wanted to live,
But because all I want out of life is to die.
I fail everything I try,
I can't seem to get it right
I can't fight anymore
But I can't even end my own life.
