I

I Wipe away
The tears from my eyes
The tear of years
Of wanting to cry

But now I'm crying for everything
Everything that hurt so much
Everything that I never cried about
I just hid it away to be tough

I'm crying because of pain
Crying because for them
Crying because of shame
Crying because there's no end

I wipe my face
One last time
One last time
Before I die

I write one last entry
In my diary of life
The life of hidden pain
The diary holding a knife

I write to all the people
Who never really cared
The people who hurt me
And the people that where scared

I put my diary away
And put the knife on my wrist
I breathe in very slowly
And then start to slit

I slit my wrist deep
Again and again
But my body is so numb
That I barely feel pain

The only pain I feel
Is the pain in my heart
The pain in my head
That has been there from the start

I say goodbye to the world
That doesn't understand
The one that doesn't let me
Be part of the master plan

I say goodbye to the people
Who can't stand my face
The one's that never new me
To them I was a disgrace

I say goodbye to my sisters
The one's who were always there
They always saw me as me
And no matter what they cared

I say goodbye to my life
The one that turned out so wrong
The life that was too bad to be real
The life that went on too long

I lay down on the floor
The blood trickling down my arm
And although my body is being drained

I am amazingly calm

I slowly lose consciousness
I slowly lose my shame
I slowly lose my life
I slowly lose all the pain that I hide away for so many countless years