The Battle Within me

I never meant to hurt you,
I didn’t mean to do it,
It was all an accident,
But you still can’t find it in your heart to forgive me,
Emotionally I cut you, so deeply in your heart,
Emotionally I cut you, so meanly in the soul.

I can’t forgive myself,
Because you can’t seem to forgive me,
You can’t seem to let go,
So it still haunts the mind of me.

My heart seems to break down,
My mind blocks everyone out,
Everyone but the devil that speaks deep down inside of me,
As he chants repeatedly,
“Shut up, go home, you are all alone.”
But the angle cheers me on,
“He will forgive you, just give him some time.”

The battle’s inside me,
And in my everyday life,
They seem so big, as I drowned in my own mind,
The devil and angle always seem to fight,
As I sit in stillness trying to free my enslaved mind.
But it just seems to be engraved in my lonely mind.

Everyday I wake up the same,
Prepared for battle and what it may bring,
As the devil sings, laughs, and plays its little games,
The angle tries to reach my peace,
But it seems just to far out of reach,
Causing me to get mad as this war rages on.
I was trapped in a world of my very own.

Will the evil beat good?
Or the good beat evil?
Seems to me the devil is winning at his own little games,
Will the angle catch up and bring to me my peace?

I just wish someone would come and tame my pain.
I feel all alone, with brick walls around me,
As I break down in tears, falling to my knees,
Like I have done a million times before.
But this time as I sit I cry for help,
And for once the angle takes control,
I feel sudden relief,
Even deep within me,
I relax my eyes,
With peace now filling me,
The pain had been tamed,
The angle had finally won,
If only I had done this before,
I wouldn’t have been so all alone.

I’ll wait, for him to come around,
But I’ll live my life from this moment on,
Sooner or later, hopefully he’ll forgive,
But now I have my life to, it is no longer on hold.
I forgave myself,
Even though he hasn’t,
I said I was sorry,
So accept it or don’t,
So now I am finally freed,
Form the battle deep within me.