My mistake

Pain inside and out
failing to see
the good in me

evil and dark
is all that i understood

one more time
i said
in sadness
and in pain

one more time
i will feel it

i look back now
and realize my stupidity
sitting in the bed
hospital full of sickness

sitting there
with too many pills
going through my body
and healing marks
on my arm

there pills and mine
mixing in my blood
confusing me
and making me feel
just a little bit woozy

look and see
the IV
sticking in my arm

and i scream
the nurses run in and see

they give me a shot
and i calm down

i dont know
up from down

i look back now
and see my mistake