I'm torn between reality and the fairy tale I've been living in
I think that this is slowly turning to the beginning of the end
I want so bad to trust you, but I don't know if I should
I thought you'd never lie to me, but I don't know if you would
Every day the doubt grows stronger, but I try to hold on
To everything we have together, and have had for so long
We celebrated seven months today, and as we said goodbye
I couldn't help but wonder if these seven months have been a lie
I maybe have been oblivious to all I know I should have seen
But you know how I feel about it, that's why it's so mean
To think that you wouldn't tell me something I should know
But maybe that's just because you know I would let go
However, holding on is hurting me, and if it's really true
I will walk away from all we had, and all I've felt for you
Before this whole thing started you knew that I would never
Date a guy who did this, so I thought you knew better
Than to play me for a fool like I think you've done all this time
This may break your heart, but in turn it also breaks mine
To have to turn away from you and all I thought we had
I really do love you, but I guess that's just too bad
I won't break the promise I made to myself, I need to stay true
This is important to me...I wish it was for you
So I have to say goodbye, cux this is just how it has to be
And I'll leave without ever knowing if you ever actually loved me.
**I wrote this for my boyfriend who, I thought, was doing drugs. I promised myself I'd never date a druggie, so I wrote this for him to help him understand what was going through my head. Hope you like it.**
