I try to stop crying so i search for happy thoughts in my mind,
But soon I'm over come with depression and its all i find.
All my emotions i leave unseen,
I cant explain what i feel because i don't know what i mean.
I keep my pain stored inside,
All my problems i constantly hide.
I use my fake laugh and continue through my days,
I'm the main actor in my 24 hour life plays.
There's nobody who understands what goes through my head,
Many days i constantly wish i were dead.
I need someone to talk to who will reach out their hand,
I'm searching for someone who wont think I'm crazy because they don't understand.
With my heart turning dark i know I'm changing but don't call me crazy or weird,
I just feel like a different person and the old me has disappeared.
Those who don't understand me say its not depression and I've just started to mature,
But truthfully it hurts because I'm not that sure.
I don't see the similarities between maturity and depression,
I don't think maturity has caused my sudden lack of expression.
Maybe this has just been over thought in my head,
Maybe the answer will come when I'm dead.
But for now I'm alive although I'm dead inside,
So for the rest of my life i will continue to hide.
