Plea to be forgivin

I toss and turn in the arms that are not wrapped around me
i go to kiss the lips that aren't there
i search for a smile that seems nonexistent
and an embrace that has turned to dust
i gaze into the eyes of the blue sky
but not the sky of your blue eyes
which I've been lost in before
but now I've lost forever
I wait for your return
and the forgiveness i don't deserve
and with all reality i just want you to be happy
let my soul rot and my heart be unglued
as long as i know i can't hurt you
I'll forever wait for the day i return to your arms
but only if it's the happiest day of your life as well