I still sit in bed
Listening to the screams in my head
All the fights
All the tears
All the years
Why did it take you so long mom?
To find the strength to break away
To finally say
It's over i want a divorce
My dad hurt you so bad
Both mentally and physically
I remember that time in the hall
Where he jumped on you and made you fall
I remember that time where he said you were the one that hit
He made you sit twelve hours in that filthy pit
I remember that time he threatened me for child abuse
I told him to try, he would probably get away with it so whats the use
Of all these times no one knew
Except me and you
No one knew the way he yelled
Living with him was pure hell
No ones perfect and everyone makes mistakes
But he made too many
And all he's done will forever make My heart ache
Sometimes i think its never going to end
Like my heart will never mend
My mind races all the time
I dont tell anyone
So i say it in these rhymes
Sometimes i even cut myself to see how much it bleeds
It's like adrenaline
The pain is such a sudden rush for me
Sometimes i think i cant take it
Like I'm not going to make it
But i know its all in my head
So i take a painkiller and go to bed
And pray
That the next day
Will be better or sometimes not come at all
You know that dream you have When all you do is fall?
Well i feel it's like my life
Im slowly falling
Calling for help
Everyone calls me so strong
But i think to myself "boy are they wrong"
So secretly im going to get help
And tell someone all i have felt
So i will make it
And be able to help someone else who thinks they can't take it
