Am I selfish for not wanting him to go
I’ve asked some people and they said no
But sometimes I feel it must be me
Because when I say anything I swear its
Like I’m barking up the wrong tree
All these mixed emotions going through my head
Is it wrong to say sometimes I wish I was dead?
I thought after the divorce everything would be cool
No more fights arguments or negativity
But gosh I was wrong
Yea I know I’m never right
I cant even sleep at night
I’m crying out for help in my own little way
But no one sees it at least not today
For gods sake mom you got what you wanted the house the car and us
So why is there still such a fuss?
I can tell you why but you already know
You aren’t oblivious I know you know
Is it his money?
Lord forbid he’s not funny
Or is it your lonely?
But I would think after 20 years of hell you would want to be alone
You don’t need a man like him
To tell you when to get off and on the phone
Your tearing me up inside you really are
I feel he’s the closest to your mind
I just got left behind
I need your help your guidance and advice
I thought if I told you this you wouldn’t have to think twice
But I have no way to tell you I really have tried
So I’m going to go back to my room and stare at the wall
Praying for good for all
Cry myself to sleep until I wake
Waiting to break
