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by Robin Parmer Oct 28, 2004 category : Sadness, depression / about depression
I soar on wings, of broken dreams, and heed the facts as mere warnings, and hurt the ones who love me most, then wonder why we can't get close. I see the beauty in your eyes, and silently i wonder why, we can't get closer than we are, why gradually we drift apart. I loved you mare then words could say, and could not go on a single day, without the beauty of your voice, echoing with words of choice. I longed to have you here with me, to have you near, so you could see, how much i loved, how much i cared, how much love that deep was truly rare. How much i longed for happiness, compared to mine, yours was less, and even though i was worthless, my love for you i did confess. The world, comes crashing down, I cannot reach; I'm tied and bound, and if you loved me, you would care, and rescue me from this despair, and save me from my mind's worst fears, and dam the river of my tears, and make some effort just to help, before i snap and hurt myself. Before i snap, and hurt the ones, who loved me when, I'm sick and ill, and though i hurt them, love me still. And though i always screw things up, they'll always come to lift me up, they'll always love me, and they'll care, when life is rough and is not fair. When guys like you, take my heart, and rip and smash and tear it apart, and walk me through a living hell, when nothings good, and nothings well. Where i remind, myself how bad , that things can get, when I'm sad, i always seem, to end up hurt, and then somehow end up the jerk. I don't see how, that could be true, when all i wanted, was for you, to tell me that, you loved me too, so i know what i must do. I am breaking up with you, and breaking my whole life in two, and even though i don't want to, it is something i must do. Don't come around, and please don't call, don't ever bother me at all, don't tell me that you're say today, you were going to anyway...