Being blown off

I can't let you know
that I loved you
because i cant
tell you why

I'm afraid to say
the wrong thing
so i play the seductive card
and i secretly live a lie

I can't talk
at school
because i know
I'll cry

i look at
my surroundings
to help the
time go by

I've begged and pleaded
a million times, plus
you blow me off and
from the pain.. I'll one day die.