Tearfull questions

My eyes are red
Tears streaming down my face
Is this my pain being shed?
Perhaps its my disgrace?
Or is this how my mind informs me
that I'm bleeding inside?
I'm afraid to let her see..
I try to hide that i cried
I feel so weak
Whats with the tears?
They drip down my cheek
Are they the liquid embodiment of my fears?
What do they mean?
Why are they there?
Like a salty stream
Falling from my glare
But nothing gets better
when i use this tool
My shirt gets wetter
and i feel more like a fool.
As i read your last letters
I wish my tears would collect in a pool
So i could tear off this frown
And throw it away
Use my tears to drown
Breath em into my lungs to stay.
I know that I'd die
But i simply don't care
because these tears in my eye
are being more then unfair.
Because when i think of losing my girl
I can feel my heart being broken
Theres not enough words in the world
for the pain to be spoken
I'm not gonna lie
I don't know what to do
because over and over i try
to explain how much i love you
but the words don't compare
to what my heart feels
So FORGET THIS DESPAIR
I'm gonna force it to heal.
And i wish i could say
that I'm not afraid
but tears have a way
of washing off my facade
and leaving me open
waiting for pain
scared and hoping
To hold back the salty rain
because i cant take it
when i think of her loss
I simply wouldn't make it
I would rather be crucified on a cross
I still have to explain more...
I haven't even stopped falling for her
There is no floor
Just arguments that fly by in a blur
and i see what they do..
fights give her doubt
as if she thinks i was
trying to make myself without..
And i can see past the crystals
covering my eyes
as my pride swallows insults
i give myself because i made her despise
And yet..she doesn't know
How much i love her
every time her face shows
My very soul starts to stir
It moves in
for a closer look
examining everything
as if reading a good book
No I'm not playing..
Just that girls sighting
Fries everything I'm saying
as if I've been struck by lightning.
And with each passing day
I fall for her more
can you understand when i say
this fall has no floor?..
Unless SHE leaves ME
alone on this earth,
Someday i WILL see
our babies birth.
Because when i say FOREVER
I honestly mean it.
And when i say NEVER
You'd better believe it.
So take my word
because these tears sting
and i need to be heard
so i accomplish something
before i cry more
and drown in the flood
This fall has no floor
though the trails marked in blood
And if thats too much..
I'd force myself to understand
Because i do have a painful touch
But I'd die without her hand.