Ashleigh, I'm Sorry

I can't take it, you can't really be gone,
You won't ever see it again, the early morning dawn,
I wish you were here, it would ease so much of my pain,
If only your heart were beating, flowing blood in every vein.

I'm crying right now, just as I was then,
If I could relive that day, I'd do it again,
I would do it right this time, no selfish mistakes,
But I can't do it again, and it makes my heart ache.

I can't help but know, I was the cause of your death,
Now you will never be happy, or take another breath,
I won't be happy either, no matter what I say,
I can't be happy, knowing your not here today.

It's all my fault, please forgive me,
I never saw it coming, you were my best friend, Ashleigh,
You probably hate me, and I understand why,
I know I deserve it, when my heart bleeds and my soul cries.

I just miss you so much, and theres nothing I can do,
If I could, I'd give my whole life to you,
That way you'd be here, I'd be the one looking down,
At least you'd be happy, I'd no longer frown.

Please, I'm begging the higher source that took you away,
Let me have my friend back, please let her stay!
I can't live like this, my heart is beating while hers rests,
Why should mine beat lively, between my breasts?

Your never coming back, and It's something I have to face,
But I still caused your death, and I live in disgrace,
I never knew how much I loved you, till you went away,
I can't believe I killed you, this haunting will forever stay...

(I love you Ashleigh so much and I'm sorry I had to take your life, I now know how much I need you, if only I had known that earlier.
In loving memory of Ashleigh
Dec. 25, 1988-
July 7, 2003 )