Living Under The Knife

I am scared to get hurt
For what may to come after
The tears and the fears
The blade of that knife
Handling the pain and strife
With it slowly cutting into my flesh
Releasing it the very best
I am trying so hard
To find a new way to help my pain
But the knife in my vein
Is something I cannot explain
It takes the pain away right
Then and there
It makes me feel in control
I control my body
No one else can control me
that’s how it should be
So with the blade of that knife
I carve ever so softly into my skin
And watch the blood run thin