No breath

To many times i have cried
so times I've died inside
and now every day
is like a painful memory

just getting on with my life
just wanting to take the knife
now these emotions i suppress
lie deep inside
in my lonely disturbed mind

coughing choking on every breath
in my mind i wish for a eternal death
if only you would see
the real me

and you would know how i relay feel
and with this life i can't deal
if you would just let me go
then you would know
that in death
i am better off with no breath

so its time to face my fears
to face your tears
as i Lock the door
blood drips on the floor

don't shout in my ear
cause i don't hear
all you pleas
theres no need

as the last drop hits the floor
i see the door
filled with light
as i leave the endless night