I'm sorry Dad...

I used to sit up at my window and wait,
Hoping you'd come home and kiss me goodnight,
You were the one I used to look up to,
But now I've realised its far to late...

I was barely six when you first left,
You hit Mum and I wasn't strong enough,
I know what you did was wrong but I can forgive you,
You stole my role model and I think that was theft...

I remember telling you I hated you,
DOwn the phone telling you that you weren't my Father anymore,
I didn't know what I was saying,
I think I heard you cry and its only now that I can feel your tears,
I took eight long years to understand how I little I knew...

I could never talked to Mum,
She hated even the sound of your name,
Seeing you only on a Sunday wasn't ever enough,
And when you left for good on the inside I went numb...

When you found a new wife with a son my age,
A little bit of my soul died,
It felt like you were replacing him with me,
Then you stopped calling and coming to see me..
So I ripped out the last bit between us in rage....