I woke up this morning
And something just wasn't right
This is the price I pay
For doing what I did last night
I had to make another cut
Bigger and deeper than all the rest
I couldn't help myself
I know what I need best
It's so easy to tell me to quit
But its harder than it seems
My reason to live is in a box
It glistens and it gleams
I know from experience
Its not suppose to feel this way
But theres nothing I can do now
This is how I must pay
I'm sick of playing around
With the idea of death
For tonight I have chosen
To take my last breath
You tell me that you love me
And that you really do care
But only at counseling
What happens when were not there
You fill their heads with many lies
Just as I do
You make them believe your okay
And none of this has to do with you
I'm the angry and disturbed teen
Mad at her father
But none of this is about you
Not the innocent mother
One thing the councilor
Said was right
And I'll prove that
By killing myself tonight
I'm not going to threaten
And I'm not going to lie
I'm not going to give you a 2ond chance
I'm going to die
I wasn't going to say goodbye
I had no reason to
But I started to think
Knowing this wasn't true
I did have friends
Who might have cared
And if I would've given them the chance
They would've been there
They didn't know
How often I deceived them
But it doesn't matter now
Because I can't hide from them
I know I did a lot of wrong
Things that kept me up all night
But tonight when I commit suicide
I'll make everything right
Not just for myself
But for all of you
I know you couldn't believe it now
But I have thought this through
So goodbye dear friends
I'll always love you
The End
