You promised

You said you loved me
You said you would never leave
You said you cared
You said you would always be here

You promised never to go there again
You promised you wouldn’t leave
You promised to stay by me
You promised me all these things

I told you I loved you
I told you I would never go there again either
I told you I wouldn’t leave
I told you that I cared

I gave up the knife
I gave up those crazy thoughts
I gave up my old ways, alcohol and drugs
I gave up those people, who I thought were friends
Just to feel your love

But you left me here
You sent me back to hell
You broke all your promises
You went there again, but this time you didn't come back
You’re never going to come back

Now I’m all alone, there’s no body left
The sun shines, but all I see is rain
People laugh, but all I see are tears
They smile, but I see frowns and despair

All the things that used to make happy
Now make me feel worse
Knowing that you’re gone, never coming back
I just stay silent, never to talk again

I ignore those who call my name
I sit in the dark
My face, is never dry
For tears ran down it, day and night

I’m afraid to sleep
Scared of what the blackness will bring
It gets harder and harder to concentrate
My focus is no longer straight

You leaving me, has driven me
Back to my old life
Seeking comfort,
In drugs and alcohol

I’m now back to the knife
Trying to take my life
To be back with you
But someone always founds me

But tonight that will change
Cos, I’m going to our special place
I’m going to leave hell
I’m coming back to you’re side

So as I drag the knife down my wrist
I whisper
“Don’t be sad, don’t cry
For I’m going to my love, the only one who ever cared.”