I Need You

I'm always sad and I don't know why
I came home today and I just wanted to cry
My feelings took over and I didn't know what to do
You weren't there to help me this time
I guess I should get used to that
You are my boy but everytime I let it get to me your not going to be there
I did a really stupid thing
It was in the past
I regret it now because I can't stop
It's my only relief from the torture and pain of this world
To feel that cold, hard blade slide across my wrist
It's the only thing left to turn to
After it's done and the blood flows out I smile like nothing was ever wrong
Usually I can talk to you and get the same high
But today you weren't there
So I engraved your name onto my wrist
I watched the blood flow out
It was my only hope and it felt so good
I wish someone would just understand I need you to stop me doing these things I regret