Internal Destruction

I'm hurting but I don't know why
sitting here I start to cry
I let the tears just fall
I'm not ashamed of them at all
I wonder if there's anyone out there who feels this way
I tried to tell them but I don't know what to say
Why is it hurting
Why do I feel this way
What is wrong with me
I ask you
Is it wrong for me to wish I could smile
or should I wish to die
I keep it all bottled up inside
Hoping one day someone will look beyond the fake smile
and see the real me
another suicidal teen
a lost soul
trying to fight the temptation of sweet death
trying to face another day just like the last
full of hate, pain,internal destruction
does anyone realise how hard it is for me to go through everyday
one after the other
it's all the same
all I need is to be loved
or maybe I need something more
My wrists stained red
no, it's not because of what you said
for God's sake it's just my head
it tells me with all this hate
I'm trying to brake free
leave it all behind
why can't I be happy
why can't I be free
this pain is slowly killing me