I dont even care

Its hard to try and smile
To act like nothings wrong
When the only one you've ever loved
Has turned his warmth to gone

You cant break the shell
You cant get past the hurt
But you're breaking more and more each day
When they treat you just like dirt

They make it completely better
They tell you you're their life
But deep down somewhere you know the truth
You'll never be their wife

And if you do you'll learn to cry
Alone all by yourself
Cause the only pain you can feel
Is the pain they plant in your health

Your sanity your truth
Your kindness and love
You'll pray for a signal a single sign
From God up above

And when it doesn't come
Or you're too blinded to see
You'll take your life your babies lives
And the life right out of me

This is my thought o strange to say
I have been tricked again
I cant be back with another man
Who is a ruler not a lover or friend.

I need to feel as though I've done
Something important for you
But everything I have ever done or said
Isn't good enough for you

My heart breaks when you say
You're the one to blame
YOU did this and YOU did that
To me you are nothing but shame!

I don't want to be seen with someone like you
I'm breaking all my promises
I only can because you did
Back before we told our wishes

Before We swore it wasn't a problem
Before we forgave and forgot
Before we cried and promised each other
The past mattered not

But everything I say and do
And everything I did
Brings up another time when I
Did some other kid

It brings up high school and my dope phase
My insecurities
It brings up every F*c*i*G thing
That brings me to my knees

YOU'RE KILLING ME INSIDE ZACK WHY CANT YOU SEE
I'M NOT TRYING TO DISAPPOINT YOU
I NEED YOU TO TREAT ME LIKE AN EQUAL
AND NOT ANOTHER W*o*E TO GET USED TO!