There could be fog
Or maybe just a mist
And inexplicably I’ll fade to white
Vanish and be gone
Or it could be night
And I’ll be darkly dressed
Evading easy definition
And as your eyes distracted
By a falling leaf
I’ll merge with restless shadows
And be gone
Then you will discover
What emptiness is?
A space so hollow
Even its own walls are swallowed up
A quality of missing
So intense
A lack, a lack
Each hour more bottomless that the last
Until your heart cry’s out,
A howl of forfeiture
But it will be nothing
A shun silence where I used to sing
And deafness
A howl must strike the right resonant frequency
A wail that echoes all to the ends of time
To fill the gaping void in whole, looping wavelengths
From the well of your soul such loneliness
To make Siberian wolfs hang heads for shame
In their convivial packs
Then only then
Might you detect my footprints, indistinct?
Marking the morning dew fall
Perhaps glimpse a puff of breath
In the cold, dawn air
You must utter
A howl so desolate it
Jerks you from your sleep
To find me warm beside you on your pillow
And you will know how
Close you were to the brink
Of the abyss
