Remember....

I think of it from time to time
And the scars I have un-shown
All the pain inside
And the feelings left unknown

The things I carved upon my skin
Dug their way into my heart
I cried a tear each line I made
As I carved mark by mark

Each time I carved
The scars were longer and deeper
I was the only one who controlled the pain
I was my only keeper

Every time I passed them over
Pain fell from my eyes as tears
I was reminded of the pain
That built up through the years

There are marks upon my body
That cannot be erased
There's pain that cannot show
And marks that can't be replaced

Depression slowly started lifting
But came round every so often back then
I never knew how or why
And I never knew when

Every so often I still cry
And wonder what would happen if I did it again...
I imagine the blood running down my arm
Each time the blade goes in

But then I remember
That I'm supposed to forget
But today I remember again
Different day same shit...

Sometimes I'm happy
Sometimes sad
Some days are good
And others bad

I'm mostly happy lately
But i still have my days
Where the tears keep falling
And the sadness stays

But I look down again and the only thing I can do is.....Remember........