In The Hospital (True Story)

In The Hospital

I lay there on the couch
In a busy A+E
My mum and dad beside me
Again they’d failed to see

A curtain was all that kept me
Hidden away from sight
A doctor named Francesca
In the middle of the night

Two nurses standing with me
Were they keeping me from harm?
My vital stats were taken
Only then one noticed my arm

Another doctor was called
To assess the situation
A male doctor this time
With a lack of realization

I sat there with my drip and needles
Sticking in my vein
Tears rolling down my stinging eyes
Immersed in endless pain

She tried to take a blood test as I was
Violently sick again
She said she would be back to see me
When she had any news

The male doctor said nothing could be done
The drugs had entered my blood
All we could do was to sit and wait
I had taken more than I should

So I lay there on the cold hospital bed
Silently crying in tearful despair
Waiting to hear how much damage I had done
And whether I could repair

Five painful hours passed with no word
A nurse came for an ECG scan
I lay there still, my insides screaming
My mum holding my hand

An hour later my world began to turn
As my head began to shake
The doctors all came running back
For an hour I could not wake

When I woke, the next morning had come
Lying in an unknown bed
I had thought it all to be a dream
A vision in my head

The horror struck me when I saw
My psychiatrist by my bed
Looking at me in his sorrowful way
I looked away instead

The test results were not too good
Some liver damage but not fatal
I should have felt relieved but all I felt
Was numb, from head to foot

I’m so sorry Mum that I failed again
I’m a coward Mum, I know
I’m so sorry that I caused you even more worry
But this pain, it just won’t go

I’ve tried allviehe things that you said
A psychiatrist, drugs and more
But sometimes when the pain’s so bad
Nothing can re-assure

I’m so sorry that I wanted to be dead
To leave this pain behind
I’m so sorry, I can’t go to school
I’m sorry for my screwed up mind