Change in life

I was liven my life as a joke
Just wanting to lay and choke
Maybe then id die
So I didn’t have to continue to cry
Then he came along
And was like a beautiful song
In my mind
He made me blind
With love in my heart
That was there from the start
I don’t know how or why
I deserve such a great guy
I don’t deserve him
Although before him my life was dim
Now my life is bright
With lots of light
So I want to thank the lord
For not getting bored
With all my problems and me
And being able to understand and see
I am still full with love to give
And have a will to live