My butterfly...

An oath of silence was taken.
My heart and soul and mind was forsaken.
For you.
Now there's nothing i can do.
I live in jealousy.
I live in envy.
I.
Don't know why.
I never cared.
With this secret i shared.
I cannot live because i am too weak.
I'm silent and cannot speak.
An oath with my heart mind and soul.
With an angery heart and i lost sight of my goal.
I watch you with admiration.
But that only cause's frustration.
envy is seen through these eyes.
envy is heard through these cries.
he cries for help but nobody can hear.
that kills him like a spear.
Through the heart.
That alone has torn his world apart.
A world in so blue and grey.
Now that your gone he has nothing more to say.
Alone i go chasing.
Alone i go wasting.
My life.
Is it wrong or is it right.
That i don't know.
where it fly's is where i go.
Lead by the blind.
Followed by the sight that is behind.
Dreams that aren't yet crushed.
A tortured heart that goes untouched.
Untouched by the outsiders the rule my society.
Alone i follow something so blindly.
Chasing a dream caught in the wind.
Wondering where to end, or wanting to begin.
Losing sight of all my reasons.
Facing all my treasons.
Light has burnt my heart mind soul.
I've lost sight of my goal.
Walking the world alone.
I set out on my own.
With an envied eye.
I watch for my butterfly...