Is It Worth It ?

by Jonny   Nov 4, 2004


I’m living from moment to moment,
Not even from day to day
It feels as if this darkness
Will never go away.

I’m cold, so cold, inside my soul
I cannot feel the sun
There once was a point to my existance,
But now my race is run.

I came last of course, I always do
I never expected to win.

But it would have been nice to have had a chance to avoid this state I’m in.

I know there’s one sure way to end it
To cease to feel the pain
But I’m afraid that I’d still be a failure
And wake to face it all again.

I’m afraid to live, afraid to die,
I cannot make a choice.

My friends tell me to ‘Do something!’
But my fear has stilled my voice.
So I suppose I’ll just have to continue
In this dark and joyless life
Until I get desperate enough to CHOOSE –
The Darkness or the Knife.

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  • 20 years ago

    by Jonny

    Though I think you are a good friend , Death is viewed very differently by each person even though it has the same meaning , it is different for every soul and human being apon mother earth.

  • 20 years ago

    by ashleigh

    jonny, you are a great writer as i have told you many times.. and as a friend im telling you that life is always worth livin, nothing is worth dying for .. i know that you will find happiness within yourself, and i have never doubted that for a second.you are a great friend, and you are loved greatly. always remember that im here for you. ~ ana (ashleigh)

  • 20 years ago

    by Jonny

    Please Give your comments , Because All my poems are about me and I want to know.