I could do better

I know i could do better
i know i am not great
i do my best
but its just not good enough
my life is rough
but its all my fault
kids are mean and rude
but even people i thought were my friends
well they do it too
crap is always being talked about me
even by people i trusted and knew
most of them are now my enemy's
and we are through
as i sit in my room and cry
knowing i could do better
i cant even stop to think why
i am loosing friends like no other
and i am trying so hard to keep pleasing my mother and father
my parents are always there for me
and i love them too
but sometimes i don't know what to do
i know that i hurt them
its not like i mean to
i love them more than words can say
but my life is so complicated
all thats left is to kneel by my bed and pray
i pray to god because i know i could do better
i know i can and i try to
but it never goes through
i hate it when i know i hurt my mom or my dad
i just wanna go to my room and cry
never come out
my folks don't deserve that!
what was i thinking
i sometimes think i am such a terrible child!
but i know no matter what i do they will love me!
at least i got someone who loves me
i don't need my friends
they talk crap anyways
i got my family and loved ones.....now all i have to do is pray...