Zapping though History

There is something wrong here
I don’t belong here
The fear of the dark
Mark’s my mind

You find the darkness
That grows with in
Hidden in stonewall cells
As I fall

I see things that I shouldn’t
Memories zap though my mind
Being not so kind
You will find

Drunken hits
Throwing fits
His gun
Pleading of ton

I’m feeding of things
That happened in the past
Zapping though my mind
Ever so fast

Hating every part of it
Bitten into old history
It has its own mystery
The souls call me down

Cause I know
I know what they have done
And no I refuse to tell
Shall this be my destiny?

Only time should tell
I know they want me already
Cause everything I touch
I go back in history

Suicidal attempts, murders, and more
Hell how can any man
Rape his daughter
Than smack her to the floor

The sad thing is
It happens everyday
For the life turns to fade
Either choosing heaven or hell

Having not a thought
To tell anyone of what they done
Cause they know
What they have done is wrong

A long night
In the big house
Is not what they want.
They only lost their temper once

But the one time
It lost someone’s life
Heck look at little Stephanie’s life

Was in her moms hands
Her older brother
Held her doll up to the fan
Saying “Barbie will die”

Her mom takes the knife
So fed up with the fights
Stabbed her son
And realized what she has done

Blamed it on her daughter
And drowned her in the pool
She was the fool
But yet her husband was blamed

Executed for the mothers mistakes
Now I see all this action
That happened years ago
Not wanting anymore

As my mind zaps through history
Never giving it once more
Cause all the history
Can never change its mystery