Reflections

I sit across the mirror
i stare deep into my eyes
in hopes my dreams are there
that life remains inside

no matter how hard i look
i still cant find that girl
that everyone once knew and loved
without a care in the world

i only see anger and fear
depression is all i am
i cant find the happiness
i am one of the many damned

the mirror reflects the real me
it shows the thoughts of the world
i cant ignore the ugliness
and myself i don't care for

f@#$ all the effort
that sh!t never worked
the pain remains
and these thoughts always lurk

i cant better myself
i question why
all my thoughts and dreams
were set aside

my potential is limited
i am a body with no use
thoughts of hate and violence
is an everyday abuse

my life was in his hands
he had full control
now when i look in the mirror
i see someone i don't know

reflections of someone who let me free
of a life with no fears
now that time has passed
all days seem like years

all my faith is gone
he took all i had to give
he took my soul and hope
now i do not live

i am the only one whose dead
yet walks the face of the earth
looking for her life
or a new beginning or rebirth