Making friends with shadows on my wall
There the only one's here to watch me fall
I hear the voices in my head
as I take my meds. & crawl into bed
Everything’s so hard
& Everything’s so wrong
It’s hard to even think of holding on
to anything I have
or anything I want
Sometimes I don’t want to be here at all
Watching the hand on the clock pass me by
Thinking of some ways I could end my life
I’m smiling when I have to,
Breaking down when I don’t
I know I should at least try to be strong
But then I know I won’t
coming to a decision
I can’t keep wearing my fake smile
I just want it to stop so I can
disappear for a while
You won’t give me a break
You won’t give me any time
Regretfully wishing it was
your arm not mine.
